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I just wanna lay in my bed
Don’t feel like picking up the phone
So leave a message at the tone
[Bruno Mars – The Lazy Song]
Whilst the upbeat note of this song doesn’t exactly encompass how I’m feeling, it really does encompass my mood with the lyrics! Because today is one of those days where I just want to hide away from everything. Continue reading “Today, I don’t feel like doing anything”
I got nothing but dreams inside, I got nothing but dreams
Fall Out Boy – Champion
I’m sure it’ll surprise none of you after reading my blog entries, that I’m fed up. Totally, utterly, completely fed the hell up. With a side order of ARGH. Continue reading “I’m a champion of the people who don’t believe in champions”
Then I’m a fucking arsonist / I’m a rocket scientist
Panic! At the Disco – Crazy=Genius
So today, I went to see a psychologist at the CMHT, which I thought was going to be a real step forward, and actually get some wheels put back into motion after my treasure of a CPN left, and I got the letter to say that I’m not getting a new one… (incidentally, still not heard from the manager that’s supposed to be getting in touch, but anyway…) Continue reading “If Crazy Equals Genius…”
(Title: Bastille – Fake It)
Isn’t it strange, how you really can’t tell how someone’s feeling just by looking at them, or even just by superficially talking to them? We can only ever know as much as that person wants us to know.
It’s quite a common thought that people with anxiety and depression really do make the best actors, because they practice every single day. Continue reading “Then I’ll do my very best to fake it…”
Hey guys, just wanted to write about things that you might see and hear in the media over the next few days. Continue reading “Response to recent press on SSRIs”
(Title: Bastille – Send Them Off!)
Well guys, I have to admit, it’s been an incredibly busy month, where an awful lot has happened! However, I have to say, the feeling of being sat back in Hoxton North with a cup of coffee (albeit I’ve just finished it…), the gentle burble of other people in the venue, music, and slightly distant passing of cars, is just sublime. This truly is my happy place, my favourite place to be, the one place I can count on to be super awesome. Continue reading “Won’t you lay your healing hands on my chest? Let your ritual clean.”
About time I gave you faithful readers an update really! It’s been more than a while…
It’s been 7 weeks since I’ve seen my care co-ordinator, and since then I’ve had some really bad days and changed meds. As far as I’m aware, she’s not even acknowledged my text messages! Continue reading “We are Survivors”
Firstly – sorry it’s been a while. It’s been a really busy few weeks, and my brain hasn’t been in any way in the right frame of mind to write down what’s going on. Continue reading “Hey, don’t write yourself off yet…”
Sorry about the other night guys, I just had one of those times when I needed to write, yet no words would come out, which quite frankly, suck. It’s like I know what will help me out, yet I just can’t actually do it. I can almost hear my brain laughing at me! 🙁
Continue reading “I’m still hungry…”
D’ya know what, I’m sick of this stuff now.
Had a great meeting with my care coordinator yesterday, which was great. However, I’m now worried that I’m going to lose her, and get a therapist instead. Which, on the face of it, is great… BUT…
Continue reading “Losing the battle”